Running head: ABANDONING THE PERFORMANCE NARRATIVE Abandoning The Performance Narrative: Two Women’s Stories of Transition From Professional Sport

Despite its potential to illuminate psychological processes within socio-cultural contexts, examples of narrative research are rare in sport psychology. In this study, we employed an analysis of narrative to explore two women’s stories of living in, and withdrawing from, professional tournament golf gathered through life history interviews conducted over 6 years. Our findings suggest that immersion in elite sport culture shaped these women’s identities around performance values of single-minded dedication to sport and prioritisation of winning above all other areas of life. When the performance narrative ceased to ‘fit’ their changing lives, both women, having no alternative narrative to guide their personal life story, experienced narrative wreckage and considerable personal trauma. They required asylum – a place of refuge where performance values were no longer paramount – to story their lives around a relational narrative which reinstated a coherent identity while providing meaning and worth to life after golf.